I know some people insist that people change over time. Does it mean that possibly one day me, people I love and just strangers around me will stop doing stupid things and be all-good, all-responsible, all-organized? Does it mean that all chaos and simultaneous things I love will disappear? There will be life at work, 5 days a week, 8 hours a day. There will be family and friends, when we will go out on fridays and make short trips on weekends. There will be 2 weeks of holiday, when I, or my family and me, will be able to afford and go somewhere to travel. We will be able to afford a house. American dream comes true? You know what Comedian thinks about it. It is already here. It never existed. I like how people create such dreams without realizing how impossibly naive and mercantile they are. New house and car becoming the measures of happiness. One thing I know for sure about myself - it will never happen to me. It is the thing I am most afraid of. One of the few things.