new shpongle is awesome

it was my birthday a week ago.
I still don't feel like I'm twenty.
the only thing that I can actually notice is that my face looks somewhat older. no, not wrinkles. the facial expression in the whole I mean.

I know that I'm a pathological insomniac but even I have to sleep sometimes. Especially on the spring break. There are several reasons why I am awake. When they all mix up together in my head there is only one big uncertainty left. Which does not make things any easier, of course.
I am listening too much to Interpol.
And feel a lot like She Wants Revenge.
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just spare me the suspense.
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aime-moi moins
mais
aime-moi long temps.
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of course i know the root of the problem.
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I know some people insist that people change over time. Does it mean that possibly one day me, people I love and just strangers around me will stop doing stupid things and be all-good, all-responsible, all-organized? Does it mean that all chaos and simultaneous things I love will disappear? There will be life at work, 5 days a week, 8 hours a day. There will be family and friends, when we will go out on fridays and make short trips on weekends. There will be 2 weeks of holiday, when I, or my family and me, will be able to afford and go somewhere to travel. We will be able to afford a house. American dream comes true? You know what Comedian thinks about it. It is already here. It never existed. I like how people create such dreams without realizing how impossibly naive and mercantile they are. New house and car becoming the measures of happiness. One thing I know for sure about myself - it will never happen to me. It is the thing I am most afraid of. One of the few things.

I will see Franz Ferdinand on April 15 in Oakland.

I will see the Kills on May 19 in Filmore.

I hope to see Cold War Kids on April 28.

I still hope to go to Coachella and see some of my fave bands in high concentration.

I hope Placebo, Muse, Interpol, She Wants Revenge and the Strokes will come sometime soon too.

My personal Oscar predictions.

I am one of those regular people who go to the movies because they JUST like it. They are not film critics. They are not people who took film/directing/movie history/or else classes. They are not people who like a film just because someone had said it is great - we like a film because there is something in it that strikes. Something that is awakening some feeling, something that draws great attention, something that makes you think or realize what you have not think of before. We like movies because of one or several factors, we may like it because of great lightening work, modern innovative thought, smart jokes, dumb jokes, cute actor/actress, great director, book it is based on, atmosphere of the movie, the way it disgust us, the way it change us. We might like it without any reason, without any particular reason I mean, we like it because we just like it. It might be something super popular blockbuster-ish or arty indie independent. It might me a video footage a friend made - but for us nothing could be more perfect.

We don't care if other's said it is not a good movie at all. We don't care if critics said it just sucks.We just like it, even if on public we prefer to keep our voices down, because it is not cool to like this movie.

I have no idea if it is true for most of the people or not, I don't know how other people choose their favorite movies, but at least it is true for me. Based on all my personal bias, here is the way I would like to see Oscars finding their owners:

Best Picture: Slumdog Millionaire.
It must sound so pathetically ordinary, to wish that exactly this movie would win best picture. To be honest, I do not think that the whole idea of it is new. I find the way it is told new. I find it important to get all the attention now, at economic crisis time, to problems of other countries. It is significant to see stories like that - maybe idealized, yes, with happy ending, about some regular poor guy who got taught by the life in the most possible cruel way, and this knowledge gives him an opportunity to change it. Bravo, we like it.


Actor in a Leading Role: Sean Penn, Milk.
Gus Van Sant's new picture is not about gay people. Harvey Milk was not fighting for rights of gay people. No, the movie is about people's lives, people's rights, people's freedom to openly declare their preferences. Discrimination. Racism. One's ego. Harvey Milk was fighting for people's quiet happy life. When two guys can walk on a street holding hands and no one will insult them. When a man, who openly identify himself as gay or bisexual can quietly work as a doctor. When a man, who moved to unknown city with just an idea to open a camera store can represent a Zeitgeist. Sean Penn perfectly portrays Harvey Milk, he gave him not just a strong character. He gave him a heart and a soul. He showed how Harvey was just one of us. He showed how he is still with us and how fight is not over yet.


Actor in a Supporting Role: Heath Ledger, The Dark Knight.
I am not a fan of Batman at all. I have never read any of comics and before watching this film have seen only Tim Burton's version. One might argue that Jack Nicholson Joker is perfect. I would say that Heath Ledger's Joker has a soul, and more frightening, he gives a feeling that Joker was real. Jack Nicholson's Joker is now look more as some evil Clown, when Heath Ledger's is a rebel with an anarchistic soul.

Actress in a Leading Role: Kate Winslet, The Reader.
It is Kate Winslet's year. In both The Reader and Revolutionary Road she portrays deeply developed, complex characters, each one with own story and lives. Personally, I was fascinated how with enormous beauty and lightness she presented complicated, naive and romantic image of a regular German woman, left without a choice, living for her own existence and love.


Actress in a Supporting Role: Penelope Cruz, Vicky Cristina Barcelona
If I would say I feel a lot of ssympathy to Cruz's character a lot of people would stare at me with total misunderstanding. Yes, I like neurotic women on edge, so genius that they can't live without bringing harm to surrounding people. I also think that this character is the brightest, most interesting and well-developed of all the rest in this nominee.

Art Direction: Revolutionary Road

Cinematography: The Reader

Costume Design: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Directing: Milk (Slumdog Millionaire)
I wish it would be Milk, but most likely it will be Slumdog Millionaire.

Make Up: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Music (Song): Slumdog Millionaire

Writing (Adapting Screenplay): Slumdog Millionaire

Writing (Original Screenplay): Milk

P.S. I gave my comments only to those nominees where I have full-formed opinion. The others are no more than my wishes, or guesses, where I can't fully explain my opinion. Or I can, but in a rather chaotic, unstructured, perhaps illogical way, which I don't want to fully present here =) Also, I have skipped some nominations, the reason could be that I didn't see these movies (for example, in Documentary or Foreign Movie nominations) or I am not so sure about technical features of this nomination (ex. Film Editing, Sound Editing & Mixing).

This year's Coachella is right on my birthday - April 17th. I will be twenty.
I really can miss a day in school, it is okay. Anyone gets what I want for the birthday present?
Please, anyone? I'll be good, I promise.

okay, this is actually a copy of my lj post, translated in English.
this year i would like to watch all Oscar nominees.
here's my list (without particular order):

Milk


The Curious Case of Benjamin Button


Frost/Nixon


The Reader


Slumdog Millionaire


The Wrestler


Doubt


Revolutionary Road


Changeling



Frozen River


Vicky Cristina Barcelona


The Duchess


Australia


Wall-E


i'll post my predictions later =)

Happy Birthday Masha!