it is 3am and i have to wake up in three hours to go to my calculus exam. well wake up - the only thing is that i'm not asleep. i can't really say that it is because of the exam - though partly it is. thinking that maybe the better choice would be to go to the 24h starbucks on powell - at least i can study there and coffee will keep me awake. i have exams on tuesday and wednesday too. if i would be so paranoid every time, when i would be sleeping i'm wondering. ah, it's hopeless. knowing me, i can tell you that all this pre-exam paranoia is just a part of me. i always was like that, and well it looks like i always will be. it is not bad. it just is.
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you can hate me but i like weather like that. it is showery raining and rather cold, actually it reminds me of fall - september - in russia. i can believe you people think it's christmas season, in my head chrismas is always associated with loads of snow and cold. i'm from siberia, you know. so it is rather weird for me to see chrismas decorations and hear billions of variations of chrismas songs everywhere - i just can't feel that the holidays are coming.